Beseeching

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A big Thank You to YOU.

Straight to the point, this piece is about 'begging' or 'beseeching' for a relationship with your parent(s). I took the inspiration for this piece from Rupi Kaur's poetry and some music. I was so emotional while writing this one, it is nothing personal but to imagine that pain had me in tears. 

It's a very innocent & fragile piece. Please please, please handle with care and kindness. One more thing, the word 'beseeching' is a pseudo-name for this piece, the real name is revealed in the end. 

Before reading it, a small reminder, I am no expert, I am constantly learning and open for constructive criticisms. I write for fun not for perfection. But I am slowly getting the hang of it.

Now go ahead, read this one!

               Illustration Credits: pinterest. 

I don't like to feel
that I do not exist for you.

When I was 2,
I made chaos out of my crayons,
to draw your attention, just for a second,
Even though I knew you were going to rebuke me the next.

When I was 6,
I wailed about the toy you did not let me buy,
Just to have you tell me that we'll buy something better.
Even though I knew you weren't buying me this or anything.

When I was 11,
I broke the glass of the neighbours,
To get you talking to me.
Even though I knew you were going to yell at me.

When I was 16,
I chose all the wrong paths, in the hope that you'll show me the right one.
Even though I knew you were going to ignore my existence just like any other time. 

I never wanted that toy,
I never wanted to make chaos of my crayons,
I never wanted to break someone's glass,
I never wanted to choose the wrong paths.

All I ever wanted was you
acknowledging my presence,
making me feel loved,
be my shelter when I lost directions before I gave into the wrong paths.

All my life,
I begged you for a relationship
that I knew I deserved.

 

                     -    No child deserves to beg for a relationship with their parent(s).

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